Poison Vulture

I was 15 when you first pinned my wrists down

With words, with guilt

Exploiting my kindness

Because that's what you were after

Bleeding me dry, sucking the chambers of my heart

For you didn't have one

Ever a shadow that hovers above my shoulders

For three long years you held me hostage

In the belief that

I wanted this

And when I saw you as an adult for the first time

You couldn't resist committing another crime

Your stubble churned my stomach

Dreading where it festers now

Knowing what it's done

Your mole, like a dart in my eyes

A reminder that justice only happened

In my mind

The truth bleached me clean and gave me

Some sense of self

A mountain of grief on my shoulders

My mantra being that I was a child

I was a child

When you tore me open and fed on me

A filthy vulture

The carcass of my body glides into another room

Floating on the ceiling

Praying that my tears wouldn't stain your pillow

Mascara black, like you did to me

If I'm frozen, you'd leave me alone?

Now, an adult, I saw you again

Your lava words that couldn't burn me

Like before

The poison left my veins and what remained

Was shock and horror

Understanding for the first time

I was never in control

You took, I never gave

Climbing the Himalayas on my shoulders

To find myself

To bury with her

Your venomous eyes

Take the antidote

Die