Perfect Disguise

I'll make myself look pretty

Make like I'm actually happy

You'll believe me when I smile

You'll think that it's actually real

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But inside I'll be dying

Even my pores will be crying

When the door is closed I'll fall apart

Tear my skin open like it's nothing

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But when the door opens

I'll be smiling

I'll laugh so loud that

Everyone sees me

Believing my life is amazing

Thinking everything is gravy

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It will be so deceiving

Nobody will ever know

Not a single person will have a clue

That I already killed myself

And what they see

Is a skin of deceitfulness and lies

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A petty hate will fill their eyes

Jealousy of the beautiful disguise will be arye

They'll call me names

Try tear me down

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But what they don't realize is

I've already hit the ground

Yet I walk with pride

Heads up, perfect stride

Confidence overruling

What can't be denied

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My past haunts me

My future taunts me

And my present laughs as I'm walking

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Girls are envious

Guys are obnoxious

And when I reject them

They call me a slut

But if I were a slut

Wouldn't I sleep with them

Say yes to every guy that approaches

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So contradicting

My conscious is shifting

I'm a bitch so they don't take advantage

But nobody understands this

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They try to call me out

Try filling my mind with doubt

But my demons already have full control

The only one left

Who can destroy me now

Is myself

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So, I'll avoid being alone

I'll party all night long

I'll be with my friends

Till the sun comes up

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Yet, there is something

I don't want to be here

Isn't that clear?

Or did I forget

Nobody knows what actually haunts me...

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• Challenge: Masks We Wear