I.
I live in fear of paper
Any scrap I find
I write of pain that is mine
Then I face it in black lines
One at a time
My own enemy is mine.
II.
I throw away paper--
When I write on it bleeds.
III.
So many lines
So many times
Too many tears
Too many fears
Bite them--
Chew them all up
And swallow them;
Then never see them again,
Except when they flow
From my pen
Hoping never to see them again.
IV.
I try to live my life without fear
But no matter what I may appear--
That image is false.
These thoughts--
Showing like mirrors
Eat me like an impulse.
V.
No matter how sick I feel
From smoke and drink
It does not stop my curse to think.
2018
About the Creator
Vivian Clarke
Third-culture-kid-now-adult with a melancholic disposition trying to make sense of life, like anyone else.
I live for my daughter, cats, and coffee.
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