Pain

pain comes in various shapes & sizes.

pain is when you're standing in the mirror begging yourself to stop crying.

pain is when your crying silently because you'll be damned if you allow others to see you down. Pain is when you can literally feel it in your heart & your chest feels like a fireball willing to burst at any given time. to other people you lie. you've perfected with decision to precision & elision how to wear this mask that's been permanently created & ironically liberated as a disguise of what's been embedded & never debated. your smile becomes infectious, your laugh becomes detected, your way of being in life becomes something so far from your true inner being . so it leaves spectators seeing, something you have forced them to believe . faulty characteristics that you've practiced to achieve . wearing this layer of persona that you have practiced to be. yet a pillow full of tears enough to jet ski your way from fears coats your pillowcase nightly. by morning you tightly put on your mask of your master of disguise & jump into those overalls of lies & a falsely beings that weighs heavily on your body & causes you to ache. emotionally damaged from all the pain you've been forced to take. yet perfectly perfecting a false image for God's sake. . . . #TheIrony