Pain Filled Eyes and Happy Lies
Life with Chronic Migraines
I like to pretend for a while everything's alright ,
Like I am not losing this fight ,
Because maybe if convince everyone I'm fine ,
I won't have to walk this tight rope line ,
If I convince everyone I'm ok ,
Maybe for awhile I'll forget I feel this way ,
I try to get out of bed ,
Legs like lead ,
Pounding pain in my head ,
Somedays the pains so bad I wish I were dead ,
I want to cry but no one will hear me shout ,
I open my mouth but no sound comes out ,
The noise of my breaking heart ,
Of all I am falling apart ,
Is swept under the rug ,
As I am passed yet another pharmaceutical drug ,
I lie awake at night and cry ,
Wonder why ,
Why this is happening to me ,
Why I have this illness no one else can see ,
Is this how my life is going to be ,
I feel like I'm slowly losing my sanity ,
I hold onto the flower stems of hope ,
Try to grow roses to cope ,
I etch smiley faces ,
Over my broken beaten places ,
Because the world does not want to deal ,
With the kind of pain I feel ,
Most people don't even believe it's real ,
I can't scrub away other people's stigma ,
They treat me like an enigma ,
I am breaking without a sound ,
There is no noise as I hit the ground ,
I smile ,
Try to hold out a little while ,
My pain filled eyes ,
Tell the happiest of lies ,
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