Overflow

I started to disappear

when I was still

such a little girl.

Excitement

Outrage

Indignation

As the world unfurled to reveal its brokenness

Only to be told to turn away

To be silent

Don't agitate

Deviate

Obliterate

The comfort of our status quo

The pages, the ink, between the bounds of the hard cover to lock them in

Better yet put a lock on that journal

Keep it to yourself

Don't say it out loud

Swallow it down

But the words, the thoughts the ideas

The reality

So many letters swallowed

They piled up

Crystallized

Became like shards

Destroying the insides

But then cutting their way out

Too long

Too many

Too much

They well up inside

They start to leak

In rivers

Down my cheeks

Rivers

Of rage

Of powerlessness

Gathering in pools

The level rising

Threatening to overflow

To drown me

So now

Nowhere for the words to go

For the river

Of rage

To flow

Except out.

Pulled the plug on

The silence

I'm still mad

But it isn't choking the life

Out of my soul

I no longer

Embrace

Silence

It needs to be said

Calling bullshit

On all of it

Breathe

Relief

Voicing the anger

Set me free