Our Birthday Wishes

I’m forgetting what your hugs feel like

But that doesn’t make me crave them any less

I’ll be celebrating my birthday tonight

And you’ll blow your candles out at 12

We were supposed to do this together

Now I just wish you well

Why couldn’t your well be with me

I guess time will tell

Time will kill

I wanted to murder it with you

Now I have no idea what to do

30, never again flirty, thriving in doom

I wonder if you too, have the birthday blues

Do you care at all?

Would it even be better to know?

Do you think of us when the distractions are slow?

Do you reminisce on our love?

Did you ever truly have it?

I hate to ask that

But my minds answers deem me pathetic

Learning from my yearning

But nothing useful

Just that I miss you more than I used to

I have instances of relief

When I forget everything

I don’t want to forget everything

But that’s what will heal me

It’ll never happen

I’m stuck in your heart

And even if you gave me the key

I’d just re-lock the lock

I’m waiting for your name to pop up on my phone

Even though it won’t

“Happy birthday!” It’d say

and I’d send the same tomorrow

If you don’t, I won’t

And that’s how I’ll know we’re done

I’ll let the candles on my own cake burn until the wax hits the icing

Because if I were to make the wish

It wouldn’t come true despite me needing it to

Anywho,

Happy broken birthday to us two.