Ones New Resolve

You should’ve been here.

I feel like I need you here.

You weren’t always there, but you would’ve been if you had the chance.

Although my demons are far from yours, I know the struggle of fighting them.

If it were easy, we wouldn’t have to fight them.

Time and time again I’ve had to imagine the pain you went through.

But then it was clear you had given in.

It was too late to save you.

I cried,

Screamed,

Begged,

All in the silence of my room,

broken between tear filled gasps of air.

This wasn’t how I wanted things.

But as they say, life is not fair.

Circumstances are not fair.

Things just happen, and sometimes they’re avoidable and sometimes they’re not.

I hope you can look down and see the world you’ve left behind.

At first it was out of spite,

See how much pain you’ve caused me.

See how much we needed you.

Now I just want you to know how I’m doing.

The good,

The bad,

And the ugly.