Old Familiar Pain

Hello old familiar pain, I find myself driving down your painful lane again.

As my tears begin to form, pain you hit my gut like a thunderstorm.

As your lightning strikes me it takes my breath away I cannot breath.

As I struggle to catch my breath I am so near the end I shake hands with death.

Now I am face to face with the one thing that can make it all stop hurting because peace of mind is all I am yearning.

I am so broken down on the inside and I have so many scars on the outside that my pain is getting harder to hide.

Should I give in and let death take my pain away or do I fight to stay alive in hopes the pain will some day subside? Is it possible to one day live my life and thrive?

I am faced with two choices and in my head I hear two voices.

One voice tells me to give up, the other tells me not to give in.

I am so confused and I do not know which voice will win.

I feel so alone and this old familiar pain has become my home.

Hurt, lost and confused through these halls I roam so cold and alone.

I will not give in to death even though I long for this pain to go away. I will continue to fight until my happiness comes back one day.