Oh agony, oh light, why did you leave me alone

Agonize, my love, as I seep into your electric and magnetic waves

Do I feel like you? Do I look like the sun but gleam like a madman?

Can I feed my soul to your heart?

I am scattered into the nothingness of creation, of agony, of death, of the past deaths, of the future deaths, of the present births, rebirths,

Death and life has made me feel the mortal hand of loneliness, feeling truly helpless, truly stupidly sad

Like a fool who loves one who rejects everything I am, the abyss is where I belong

I embrace the shadow that taunts my never ending electromagnetic field

My photons feels more like fiery hell

& yet…

H-e-a-v-e—-n

Why oh tremulous things of light & air & substance

Why have you left me so long

So long, so alone

I’m just scattered along the starry coast of the lake of light inside the desert of darkness

Terrible light, furious light

Shining in all of mankind’s eyes

Shining in a crying Angel’s voice

Far,

Far,

So far.