Oeughu

I have this oeughu in me. 

It’s a feeling that just comes up within me and… 

and it just makes me so oeughu.  

Like when you saved a piece of your favourite food for later, but then you found out that your brother ate it away. 

OEUGHU. 

Or like when you’re so flooded with things you don’t know where to start, or what to start with, and then you just don’t want to start, and mentally cannot start anymore. 

OEUGHU. 

Then the opposite of oeughu happens when… 

When you close your eyes, and everything around you is quiet. 

Studio Ghibli’s soundtrack is playing mellowly in the background. 

Each piano note perfectly pitched. 

The soft humming at 432 Hz. 

Heart-warming childhood memories flood your mind. 

The winter vacation at Hokkaido’s ski resort; 

the smiles and laughters of us, like carefree kids; 

the smell of joy in the air, crisp. 

Times like that make life seem 

worth living. 

I wish life could just always be like that.

Huugeo.