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Number Two

Makes you feel like $***

By Manisha DhalaniPublished 9 days ago β€’ 1 min read
Top Story - July 2024
Number Two
Photo by Priscilla Du Preez πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦ on Unsplash

Hey..

Can I..

"No, let's do this for HER instead."

Oh,

Wouldn't it be nice to..

"Oh, what would HE want?"

"What would they prefer?"

"We have to make sure he is comfortable."

"Let's cook what she likes."

"You have to do this for everybody!"

The words that this girl has to hear...

This girl who...

Drives herself around,

Even with the option to NOT be the driver.

Serves others food first,

Even though she's the hungriest.

Orders her own birthday cake.

Fixes her own problems.

Puts everyone else.

FIRST.

Because she is...

SECOND.

In everyone else's life.

Sometimes...

A number even further down the line.

Prioritise me no more.

For I now don't even care.

I crave to be ZERO.

So that I can be like you...

Self-centered.

Selfish.

So I don't have to care...

I can stay

NOTHING

Because having been number two

All my life

In everyone's lives

Is not something I want

Or accept

Anymore.

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Manisha Dhalani

Content writer and marketer helping solopreneurs achieve organic growth. Loves reading, eating cake, and having insightful conversations.

www.manishadhalani.com

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Comments (20)

  • Leslie Writes3 days ago

    I’m glad you are standing up for yourself! Great poem! πŸ’–

  • Addison Alder4 days ago

    You treated a $hitty situation with a great sense of humour! Lovely, personal writing :)

  • Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! πŸŽ‰πŸ’–πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰πŸ’–πŸŽŠ

  • Your words convey a profound sense of longing, amazing, love it, thanks for sharing!

  • Sam Avery4 days ago

    Really amazing interesting good work excellent.

  • Andrea Corwin 4 days ago

    Congrats on TA! I’m sorry if this is true in your life. You are number one! Sign your stories with Number One after themπŸ€—

  • congrats on TS. my sister always made sure she was number one ... she pushed so hard, she pushed people away. sad.

  • You are always number 1️⃣ just make sure everyone knows it!

  • Cathy holmes4 days ago

    Congrats on the TS. yes, time to look after yourself. Be number one.

  • Liam Storm5 days ago

    Congrats on top story! I too prioritise other people first, as does my partner, we're slowly learning to adapt ourselves together and learn how and when to prioritise ourselves!

  • Paul Stewart5 days ago

    Congrats on Top Story, Manisha!

  • Halima Begum8 days ago

    sad poem.. good written

  • Hannah Moore8 days ago

    It's hard to learn to value yourself when others put you second.

  • I mean, technically, number 2 is poop, so that explains why it feels like shit, lol. Jokes aside, it's exhausting to always put others first when we're not and would never be their priority. Sometimes it's good to be self centered. We gotta look out for ourselves. Because if we don't, then who will. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❀️

  • angela hepworth8 days ago

    So sad and heartbreaking.

  • Shaun Walters8 days ago

    Hope you can continue to move to number one for yourself

  • D.K. Shepard9 days ago

    So raw and touched with bitterness! This was a compelling read! Never being intentionally prioritized by anyone hurts

  • Novel Allen9 days ago

    I have mostly felt like number 4, being middle of 8 kids. So 2 would be a step up the ladder for me. But it is a pile of crap to always being kind and thoughtful when others never appreciate your sacrifices. The trick is to find the place in yourself where you become number 1. Focus on yourself and what it is that you desire of yourself. Even if it means risking being seen as selfish. You can only give of yourself when you arrive at that place within yourself where you accept yourself fully. Those who really care will understand.

  • Paul Stewart9 days ago

    This is very sad. Well written, but sad.

  • Lana V Lynx9 days ago

    Oh, this is heartbreaking about all that time wasted in service of narcissists. Every human should have great value in their own eyes.

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