Not How I Imagined
From heartbreak to endless love.
I want you to keep me safe in your arms
But the things you do feel like bullets sometimes
I loved you since what feels like forever
It hurts like hell, but I feel like I lost you
And all the years we had
But I guess nothing is ever how we see it
Everything breaks at some point and we say goodbye
I think I just need time to breathe
Time to be away from the world and sink into the floor
Like nothing else exists
I guess I should have seen the warning signs
But I… we lost sight of what we wanted
As I moved on I found love again
And you came back thinking it wouldn’t hurt anymore
After all this time, I force myself not to think about you
Getting over us was the hardest thing I had to do
I felt empty when you left me
I tried to shine and be bright but I was stopped in my tracks
The pain and hurt hit me so hard I could barely breathe anymore
Flashes went through my mind of all the things you did
As tears rolled down my face
I couldn’t help but feel like I didn’t exist again.
You did more damage than you could fix
You made no sense when you spoke
That was a warning sign that I looked past
We argued about little things, that we could never recall
When you left, it felt like you ripped out my heart
And didn’t care what happened
You stomped on it and dragged it through the dirt
When I got it back I thought there was no repairing it
I just can’t breathe anymore
I don’t want you back in my life
In my presence
Or in my world.
You cut down, pollute, and destroy
Until I have nothing left
After loving you as long as I did
I can finally see why it was so wrong
After all this time, I thought nothing could help
I stayed in darkness, felt that light was too good for me
I would stay up thinking about why…
Why did this happen?
What was I thinking?
Why did I let it get this far?
I should have never let you into my world.
Now that it has been destroyed
I try to leave but there is no escape
You lied and hid
When I asked you
You told me I shouldn’t trust what I hear
But clearly what I heard was right
Picked up off the ground
A knight in shining armor
Saved me from myself and brought me to the light
Treated me like a queen
He helped me heal my heart from all the damage done
He showed me not everyone shows the same love
I finally found the person for me
One who cares about the little things
My favorite color and how I like my coffee
Making me laugh just because he loves the sound
Laying his head on my chest just to hear my heartbeat
Loves me from head to toe with all my flaws
Thinking I’m perfect just the way I am
With each passing day, my smile never fades
Whenever he hugs or kisses me, my pulse quickens
Even in the worst times
Just seeing him makes everything fade away
From sunrise to sunset the smile on his faces brightens the day
So passionate and profound, he shows me the meaning of love
He continues to treat me like his queen and he is my king
The love grows stronger with each passing day
I couldn’t imagine being without him
To this day there is nothing I would change…
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