"normal love, normal life"

Touching you was new

I felt new

Different

Normal

Like my insecurities

Could be washed away

And the way your

Cock slipped out

Constantly

I knew it was normal

Uncomfortable

But the curve of your cock

Wouldn’t stop us

I begged you to flip me

Over

And fuck me from behind

And I knew you’d love

Every thrust

As much as I did

But you didn’t

Pull out

And the plastic

Holding the fear

Of a future

Forced together

Burst open

As did you

And our awkward

World collided

Until tears

Came

As quickly

As I put my clothes

Back on

And felt like a hooker

When you

Innocently begged me to

Take the 20s

You needed me to use

To secure your future

Without children

No child out of

Wedlock

Would do

For a man who felt the pain

Of his parents

“Mistake”

But I knew it wouldn’t

be now

But I guess

It never will be

for us

Because the

Feeling of awkward

Lingered enough

For you

That you

couldn’t....

I bring trauma

And that kills me

So I sit

In my car

Outside the moon

On a Georgia night

Listening to Lyin’ Eyes

Thinking about how

Beautiful yours were

Full of tears

And full of

Fears

When you

looked

At me

I wish

The dream

I had

About

our normal

Life

Could be real.