Nights In Hell
Reality Seeping Into My Nightmares
I rise
Unforgetful of the many wrongs done to me
Not blissfully aware of my painful existence
Stuck in a battle of celebrating my melanin
And fearful of what that same melanin may bring
*
The morning light kissing my naked skin
Glistening with sweat of my terror filled sleep
Cries in the night escaping my relentlessly kind lips
Fingers clutching corners of pillows and sheets
Demanding my eyes drink in the safeness of my surroundings
The softness underneath me, olive green embracing me, the warmth of my loves gentle caress
In the night I go to battle
Facing off the whiteness of hooded robes and burning crosses
Beating my fists and feet against the figure of my of captors
Screams rising from within me
Every cell of my body shrieking for freedom
My face bursting rage of the deepest red
Covered and wet with sweat and tears
Knowing there is no one to hear
No one to see
There’s no rescue coming for me
*
In the thickening circle of trees between this horror and the safe of the world
I see the series of knots hanging limply from branches
For some their duties had been already fulfilled
Swinging their strange fruit all around me
My cries losing strength from the rawness in my throat
Whatever hope in my heart also starting to croak
My fists lose their grip, my legs giving out
What resolve, what resilience becoming flooded with doubt
My head drops low and my weight drops heavy
Giving up. Giving in. Sobbing silent and harsh
Bursting laughter rings from hooded monsters lips
It’s booming echo filling my ears
Tearing from me any shred of a will to live
*
Turning my eyes towards the sky
Searching for the defiance I live my life by
The moon only blinks at me, but I can see that she cries
I am one of her nieces, daughter of sister Sun
There’s nothing she can do, no tricks to save my life
We stare at each other vision blurred by our tears
And she shows me my life, all the best of my years
An impossible smile dances swiftly through my eyes
Too brief a moment to reach anymore than that
Glancing at the trees I see the rope meant for me
Straight ahead, dangling and as menacing as can be
I shut my eyes tight as I’m dragged to my death
Terrified and resolved to meet the father of rest
*
When I open my eyes it’s to that bright morning light
To that gentle warmth of my lovers caress
Sister sun saved me, as she does every day
Slowly and softly I brush my tears away
Relaxing my fingers from the pillows and sheets
I roll to the side and watch my lover sleep
“It was all but a dream” as I’m washed with relief
Though some dreams reign true
I count my blessings only being in sleep.
*
One day I hope that these nightmares will end
Both in sleep and awake
That in time for these horrors of life peace will mend.
About the Creator
Rii Pierce
(She/her.)Words have inexplicable power. ONE word has the power to change any situation just as quickly as it takes to form. Avid writer, voracious reader, compelled activist, and anxious creator, I am newly embracing what I have to offer.
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