Nightmares in a Damaged Brain

My heart cracked

My heart cracked not in the way that you hurt me

My heart cracked in the way that every time I thought of your smile I teared up

My heart cracked because you were the stain in my soul that my depression needed but my heath couldn't afford the check

My heart cracked because you understood me but when I needed you, I was abandoned

My heart cracked because when I think back to life we had my soul aches for your touch and your smell

I'm nauseous, I'm numb, I'm crying, I'm reaching, I'm exploding, I'm combusting, I'm cracking

My heart cracked

Because I can't be enough for you from the screeching of depression inside me.

My heart cracked.