my weakness

shoved my fingers

through the dirt

faster

to bury

the way you

made my heart

stop

and race

all at the

same time.

do not be fooled -

i have no heart.

what i let you see

was weakness

and nobody

should know.

so i will

take the piece of me

that i found in you

and shove it

under the weeds

and wildflowers

where it will never

grow.

i will curse

my tears

that fall like rain

on the graveyard

of my pain

and the sunshine

that smiles

on the barren ground.

i cannot love -

it hurts.