My Shadow
Deep inside the mind she lives That part of me that never gives
She loves only herself she wants what she wants
She's selfish and cunning she loves to taunt
She is sexy and fun she loves to play
She will break your heart then run away
She knows not why she does what she does
Why she never allows herself to be loved
She dreams of a time she'll be happy and free
If only she knew when that time might be
She looks to the world and in others to find
The happiness and freedom she so desires
As hard as she tries as far as she's looked
The happiness evades her, nothing she tries works
Is it money or fame, is love or acceptance
What is she needs to fill all this emptiness
She tries to numb out the pain and sorrow
Toxic coping skills in hopes for a better tomorrow
She engages in behavior others would judge
So she isolates herself and holds a grudge
Each morning she smiles and masks her emotions
Suppressing the memories that cause such commotion
She judges herself on every level
She's too fat not pretty and slightly mental
She assumes that the world sees her this way
She buries all of the feelings and continues her charade
She has made poor choices and hurt good people
She never intended to become so evil
She's been abused and abandoned by those she trust
She shut down inside, her self esteem turning to dust
She wants to be loved deep down inside
Yet can't break down the walls she's built to survive
She protected herself by by shutting down her heart
She knows it must heal but where does she start
She has this soft side it doesn't show often
It doesn't last long but when it happens it's awesome
She smiles and laughs as real happiness does
She lets down her guard and is able to love
She's sees only the good in everyone but herself
She never judges anyone on their past, looks or wealth
Why must she be so hard on herself
So full of guilt and shame it's effecting her health
At last the day it finally arrived
Spirit broke through. he showed her the light
He showed her the good she has in her heart
He showed her the strength that had gotten her this far
He showed her the need to love herself
He guided her through what was surely hell
He opened her eyes to the truth of the matter
He showed her the exit to her never-ending battle
She had lived in a prison she created herself
Not knowing the key to break free was her own self worth
She forgave herself first forgiving others would follow
She grew on the inside and let love fill the hollow
She no longer feels empty, guilty or full of shame
She has released the past with no need to blame
She continues to grow to integrate with the light
Happiness and joy havenow come into sight of
The future is bright with so many blessings
Allowing spirit to guide while learning her lessons
She shares her experiences with those who are lost
Teaching them the agony their self hate will cause
She's opened her heart, allows herself to be loved
Remaining grateful to Spirit who guides from above
There can be no true happiness without love for yourself
Integrate your two sides and see their true worth
They are both part of you, treat them with kindness
You were created by Spirit with both the light and darkness
About the Creator
Shay M
41 year old single mom on my spiritual journey. Life can be chaotic at times but I could not be more grateful. Embarking on the next phase of life. UniversalConnection ~
Energy Healing & Spiritual Guidance OPENING SOON!
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