My Dad's First and Last Apartment
A poem about home
MY DAD'S FIRST AND LAST APARTMENT
I remember when my dad split with my mom
for the final time.
He got an apartment in Bartonville
in an old run-down Victorian house.
He was on the second floor and had great big
vertical windows
and a view of a couple of different streets.
I was 12 and I went to visit him
in his new apartment
and I thought it was the greatest thing.
I was happy for him,
not that I didn't love
my mother,
but he had this great apartment in town
and he seemed "free".
Growing up we had always lived in the boonies
in some trailer or barn or dilapidated house out
in the middle of nowhere.
My dad’s new apartment had hardly any furniture,
no knick knacks,
one piece of soap in the john
and nothing in the refrigerator
but beer and hot dogs.
He also had a shelf full of books.
They were the same books he’d had
all the years before
but for some reason they seemed different
and I began
to read them.
I really thought we were experiencing life.
I felt I was in some Saroyan
or Carver story
and I pictured my dad
sitting by one of those windows
with his old typewriter
(he was a writer before he got married)
writing about his life
with mom and maybe
writing about the time before that
which I knew hardly anything about.
And I was thinking he'd have
a few girlfriends—
the girls at my school always said he was cute—
and write about those too,
and live a loose and
easy life.
I was proud of my dad,
he finally made a change,
he had warded off something.
But 3 months later
he met a woman at the Save-A-Lot
married her
and moved into her double wide trailer
in the desolate river bottoms
over by Kingston Mines.
For years afterwards
I always looked up at his old apartment window
whenever I drove by
until I got my hick ass out
of Illinois
and learned how hard it is to find
a place to simply live
and be happy.
END
About the Creator
Mather Schneider
I was a cab driver in Tucson, Arizona for many years.
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