I walk in with eyes cast down
Always aware of the mirror on the wall
Worried about who I will see in the glass
If I will break, or keep looking back
I can’t lose a game that I never play
So I don’t even try, I don’t check every day
Until finally I woke up desperate to be
The face I’ve been left with, what other people see
I ran to the mirror and it was somebody new
I didn’t know Me, but For once wanted to.
I keep on looking, trying to find
Everything I missed while I was lost in my mind.
K.B. Silver
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K.B. Silver
Writing to sort the trapped ideas, and unsaid words left inside my mind. My brand is BlockWife. I am reselling, writing, and creating content on multiple platforms, check me out on link tree https://linktr.ee/blockwife
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