#metoo

we all have stories that we do not wish to tell to strangers

but we do want someone to listen to us

just sit and let me tell a story

I can't stay silent any longer and I've been silent for far too long

it's physically and emotionally and mentally taking its toll on me

I will not go into a tug of war with you

my dear, I'm tired of you always being around

whenever I want to go out and I meet your eyes across from room

I feel like I'm collapsing from the outside inward

I don't need a shoulder to cry on but I want someone to listen for once

and not make me feel bad about having genuine feelings

I want to be completely open for once and not have any judgments

I thought you could be that for me, but instead, you hurt me like no one has in my entire life

how could you do that to me?

I thought we were close

I thought we actually had something, but now looking back on it all and replaying it over and over in my head

I can't believe how stupid I was to believe you and actually allow myself to fall for you

your charming smile, good looks, but not cocky or overconfident

just a genuinely good guy and I loved that about you

you made me feel safe and secure and I haven't felt that in a very long time

but of course, you knew that about me since I basically told you everything

I don't know how you managed to pull it off

you had me so tightly wrapped around your fingers but you were the one holding me down captive

I was usually so good about being able to tell the good guys from the bad guys

you had my family and friends fooled

you had me fooled