The shadows of remembrance have peaked!
Whenever I turn around I see memories of my childhood
and the once-was and my vain dreams to be a famous singer.
Oh, how I sang at the top of my lungs in this
house and the way I used to dance and hit my foot
in this closed-up space leaving me marks of
wisdom and fear.
I remember how I waited for my cat to choose me
as her pillow each night,
hearing her claws make her crackling way on the parquet
and treating her choices as an important debate.
How I wished to play that black stretched piano with its melody
begging me to be taught, and my voice begging to belong
with its harmonious everlasting song.
I used to fear the shadows projected from my mind
and my innocence has left a temporary scar in my heart
reminding me of the mistakes I’ve done with boys in this city.
The kisses and memories I’ve shared vary from feelings
to locations but what they all have in common is
the immaturity I owned as a teenager forced into a dilemma
between doing the right thing or being wild!
Oh, the cherished memories of night swims
and the drunken memories of 3-day trips
and the nonsense crushes
and the clubs and the eerie stories told at night
in sleepovers with old best friends.
I can’t even begin to describe all the memories
I could describe in detail right now.
I can’t describe the sleepless nights I had over-evaluating
moments I had with boys I wished I had done things
differently with.
I can’t begin to describe how many times I’ve dreamt of celebrities
and wrote fanfics about and hoped that one day
I would meet them.
All that teen stuff.
Yet no pure good moments.
All are accompanied by a bad ending.
And what I really need right now is a
new beginning filled with pureness and good endings,
with no mirages that make me hate certain people and places.
About the Creator
Melina Giorgalletou
Just a college student from Cyprus, living in NYC, trying to find herself through words and writing.
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