Maybe, Just maybe

So, I ended up like this.

The life I'm living.

Me, being an introvert and quiet.

Sad and smiling occasionally.

Yet my heart is full of agony.

My heart has wounds,

I feel the pains.

______Could it be that I'm lonely?

______Do I need to see a therapist?

I feel like I'll be betraying myself.

The me that trusts nobody.

Oh noo! I don't know what to do.

Is it because I'm a nobody?

Is it because I don't have what it takes?

Am I under a certain pressure?

I wish I had an answer,

Maybe I could put an end to this for good.

______However,

I'm still unsure if I will. 

Because I feel like

I'm a shadow of myself.

Those who know me well...

~They asked;

______"Why are you always alone?"

______"What happened to your real self?"

~Yet, I pushed them away.

I hate everyone with no reason.

Maybe, just maybe.

I'm a shadow of myself.