mature

growing up i always heard that i was mature

more mature than the kids in my age group

they made it seem like it was a good thing

that it would be something i should be proud of

my brain aged faster than others

trauma makes the brain age faster

and that’s what happened to me

the entire childhood i lived in was in survival mode

not something most kids do

instead they had lived in a functional house

while i lived in a dysfunctional one

i was the peacekeeper between my parents

so maybe i am mature for my age

but it’s not something i chose

i grew up too fast

with no memory of my childhood

it was stolen from me