mastery

I want it so goddamn bad; I want mastery more than right now. I want to crack open my mind and yank the very vision out to expose it. I want to be able to create something to my taste and feel the raw satisfaction of creation; it doesn't feel like it is a want. I need it to happen; I don't care how. I feel so tense, as if every muscle wants to spring into action, almost like a twitch.