Masking Out Anxiety

Masking Out Anxiety

Inside, I am not me

Anxiety, please set me free

From from the rules,

I white to survive.

All I want is to get better,

But now I just take a dive.

I mimic laughs,

rehearse replies

Behind these lips, a silence lies

My thoughts run wild,

no map, no change

A masquerade of hurt and strain

Each day a role I try to play

But none of my rules will ever stay

I try to smile,

keep clean and neat

But slip on the storm beneath my feet

I fear the world beyond my door

I’m safest here,

where I was before, in bed.

Outside, I feel a rising ill

No strength, no calm,

just no will to try,

Oh my silent cry.

These anxious thoughts won’t let me be.

I beg my mind—just set me free

A magic pill, with no strings,

no side effects.

No trembling hands,

I feel so complexed

Please, universe, just hear me speak

I’m not pretending to be weak.

I need a way to stop

the downward slide

This sinking feeling deep inside

Now I am going back to my bed

Too much to cope with inside my head

Maybe one day there will be a cure

And anxiety will be no more.🙏