Manifestation of a Teenage Dirtbag

PART I

Flood my liver like a river

in this ocean of emotions

too afraid to pull the trigger

only hope keeps me going

mamma didn't raise me as a quitter

but here I am choking

on my problems, they're getting bigger

so I find myself drinking and smoking

old wounds busted open

and I just ain't coping

my window of opportunity is closing

there is no sugar coatin'

my motivation is slowin'

if only I had enough courage and strength to keep goin'

but I feel that loneliness is no foe for the moment

but I feel loneliness is my only friend and I know it

PART II

My mind flies away

I always find a way

to another time and place

my spine concaves

from the weight of my mindless plague

intertwined with fate

I feel that I'm enraged

from the time I've drained

I saw my own grave

and I'm encased in pain

in wasted memories that my brain never forgave

I wish those times would change

but I'm confined in haste

all these crimes that take place

at an inclining rate

and I can't find a change

And everyone's declining blame

we ain't nothing but a spineless race

I need to break away before I'm enslaved