𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕚𝕥 𝕨𝕖𝕝𝕝

i like to make people laugh

even though i cry myself to sleep

most nights

i'm so good at hiding

emotions

tears

because then I won't

make a fool of myself

red-rimmed eyes are

normal during

allergy season in Florida

so it works out well

i try to be ok

i really do

but my heart

and my mind

breaks me again

and still

days turned into

months turned into

years turned into

feeling like it was

yesterday and

a lifetime ago

when your heart

and my heart

had a moment

that's still beating

in mine

and every night

i know that

He's here quietly

watching me pour out

hearing me ask why

again

and still

i won't

can't

let go

and i have to trust

that one day

He'll make it

well with my soul.

💚

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.” Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭11‬-‭13‬ ‭NKJV