I used to identify as the in-between
Would look up at birds and wonder what their purpose was
Birds only see in shades of pink
Well they see in much more than that
But those colors don't exist to us yet
They must be earned
At elevations we aren't light enough for
Have to let the burdens go first
My first fist-fight was over the fact
that magenta is more purple than pink
And I tried to find evidence in my bruised knuckles afterwards
For self-defense
To show what had already been told
We fight for things we will never truly own but wish to
So no Magenta is mine
Is my word for when there aren't any
Is my mood when you won't understand
Is a mix of something
I am
a mix of something
I contain magentitudes
And no one person has met them all
Has seen my shades
I used to long for that
For someone to know me so deeply
That they could navigate the pieces of light's spectrums bouncing through my bones
But I think
Just like when someone asks our favorite color
We are made to choose
So
When I pull myself out of the oven
Reds fading, hot and ready
They will pick the hardened edges
or
the softer centers
Will only put on their plate
That which will fill them up more
Will be easiest to swallow
And slide down a pinkish throat
I tell everyone that purple is my favorite color
You can find it in every room
of my identity
It has its shades but it's easy on the eyes
Can be a bit bright
But is identifiable
Simplified
I use magenta now
For the more powerful things
For that which only I can handle
And celebrate
The title of my first book
The leaves of my favorite plant when they are well-watered
The sticky note template of a someday tattoo
that I may never commit to
Because it is all already part of me
All already all of me
You see
If you hold that purple paper in a higher place
To keep it warm for just a moment
In the center of some sunlighted window
The light might hurt your eyes but you'll fight through it
To see in but not through a bit better
To see shadow
Exists purely to accentuate light
Purple as prism to the reality of I
It will reveal something else
Something other
Something
Magenta.
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