longing

okay, i've given it up

there's no more left of who i used to be

but in the silence of the moment

i wish there was some kind of high-five

but in the silence of the moment

i wish there was some kind of high-five

all this work seems for nothing

i was looking for an instant fix

i wanted to finally see you

i wanted you to finally be proud

i wanted to finally see you

i wanted you to finally be proud

but in this dull space of longing

deep down i know there's meaning

you say to wait and see

you say the best things are unseen

you say to wait and see

you say the best things are unseen

and i believe you

without the tangibility of progress

i know something has changed

even if i don't yet know what

i know something has changed

even if i don't yet know what

so, today marks the day

and i never want to forget

a pact between you and i

that never again will i break

a pact between you and i

that never again will i break

even with that proclamation

i doubt its validity

what's the point of change if nothing changes

if only for more grief and longing

what's the point of change if nothing changes

if only for more grief and longing

so i'm asking for a sign

please, just anything really

that i've made the right choice

because everything seems backwards

that i've made the right choice

because everything seems backwards

you call me to move on, go forward

but i don't know if i can do it

i'm torn between fear and safety

but i know this is best

i'm torn between fear and safety

but i know this is best