Locked And Double Walled

At times you are so often on my mind

I’m then left to wonder where you are,

I question whether you are finally happy

While always loving you from afar.

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It’s unbelievable after all these years

I’m finally letting my wounded heart heal,

I think I’m finally ready to close our book

Flaunting my strength as I work on how I feel.

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We possibly still have a chapter or two left

That’s if I consider tying up that loose end,

Or maybe I let sleeping dogs lie after all

Maybe the cost is more than I want to spend.

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We will continue to replay our story

I’ve got my memories, good and bad,

I may stop in to visit once in a while

But not enough to start feeling sad.

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All these very long years I’ve hesitated

To visit you in my deep darkened heart,

To utter that final dreadful word goodbye

Then section off my heart to keep us apart.

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I was confident, in fact, that I’d never be ready

I believed I couldn’t bear it if I severed our last tie,

My heart linked directly into your heart by a fine line

All I need to do is snip that line and say my goodbye.

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I’m so sorry as I know we promised forever

Sadly you took that promise and threw it all south,

I’ve held onto us safely for as long as I could

It’s almost time to say the words from my mouth.

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I need to pack, you and my leftover love, away now

In my heart, pushed to the very back, a wall installed,

There you’ll stay for my forever, it’s the best I can do

A heavily scarred tiny pocket locked and double walled.

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