"Life in Review"

“Life In Reviews”

She took my hand to write our story

She wanted her coffers filled

And unto me her first blackmail a mere ruse

implied threats to sell me down the river

All because of ill-begotten reviews.

It was written by the tension in my teens;

the repression of having to cover in front of someone else

who was perpetrator

of the abuse;

something else which I had to play off

as if I could never speak the truth.

It was written all as though it were fly-by-night but always predictable;

as with you my adrenaline rushed

But there was no fight or flight response;

It was written I, the nerd spaz, could not fight back;

That’s why at almost fifty-years I am,

as it is written,

susceptible to flushed adolescence.

When you win by the theft

Of my composure you see through my words

which on a screen are to your disapproval and suddenly those words are of meaning bereft.

Not to say it is written I had to be your conquest;

If as imagination has revealed, I can let my words out and put a new lease

on a life of weakness,

then maybe it is written

karma will eat away at you

As you write your life in review.