Life

I've been searching for a life,

Though I end up with pain every time,

Not a thing that is really satisfying-

For that reason I've always been faking my smile.

I've been screaming since I was born for every single night,

The reason why I haven't slept for a while.

I've been searching for joy since I was broken for first time,

But I'm still suffering from the same wound I got once,

Maybe this is the feeling they address as "nightmare".

I've been trying to be the person I was,

But they say that It was my inner child once,

Maybe they are right-

I may need to grow up.

But at what cost?

Is it by loosing myself once forever?

Maybe I am lost and still trying to be what I was,

But I'm failing badly as I don't want anything that I wanted in past.