Letters to Mom & Dad #1

I remember your reaction as clear as the crystal I used. It wasn’t until my visit home I realised what I had abused.

The Love of my family, you found it hard to get to grips, With the problem I had, you didn’t want me to end up on drips.

When I told you about my addiction, you wouldn’t like to hear, I wasn’t ready to put it down, I’m so sorry I wasn’t near.

I needed help, but I wanted to feel connected, But With these shiny shards, my body was being neglected.

Its out of this world, you have to understand, Staying clean is no easy vacation in Thailand.

With rehabs closed, recovery centres too, You locked me up like Rapunzel, I had nothing to do.

I know I’m selfish right now, but I’m trying my absolute best. To be a better person, one day again you’ll soon be impressed.

Will I move back to Canada, I don’t even know, But I promise I won’t go back to being High and being Low.

I know you see Vancouver in such a bad light, It’s where your son almost turned off his light.

I don’t know what happened, I lost my ID. Not just in my wallet, but completely all of me.

The pain you went through its only now I see, you really are trying your best, to try and understand the issues with me.

Our fights are dramatic, but its because you care, Because a family without love is something I couldn’t bare.

Ill write another sometime soon, Other wise ill be writing this until the next full moon.