Letters to D

He was never mine

Not even when everything was perfect for that short while

And he didn’t even flinch when he said goodbye

And he didn’t even flinch when I begged him to stay

And I don’t think I can ever be whole again.

Because there is a hole in my chest where my heart use to be and it’s what used to make me feel and now I feel nothing. I used to be so happy without even thinking about it. I was just happy, all the time.

Not even in the good days, not even in the bad days, not even a little, not even at all.