Lesson

I never thought

Today would come

my head

feels hot

rest of my body is numb.

I’m tired and I’m struggling

they say “keep your head high“

but there’s something somewhere holding me.

I’m weak and I’m tired

My job said ’m fired.

I wanna go home,

But instead I fell in a hole..

So instead of crawling

In my bed, here the spiral goes,

Down.

Down I go,

Accusations are insane.

Only way I know,

keep on doing my same.

Drugs are a tool,

Or

Maybe a weapon,

depends if you’re a fool

or a mommy who learned a lesson.

I admit, I’m not perfect. I never will be perfect. My son is the only reason why I fight every single day of my life to stay alive. to stay Level headed. To smile even though it feels like I’m gonna puke. I will never give up, I might lose one day . But Ronan Ray will NEVER ever struggle emotionally, and will never think mommy gave up.

Thanks for reading. ♥️