leave

you will leave and i will cry.

who were we kidding.

we were never going to last.

i will say that i will never let you come close again.

maybe this time i will keep my word.

i will draw wreaths instead of the chains

you tied around my wrists,

i will remember what i want to.

you were good to me.

sometimes.

but then your face would fade in my hands

and my world would disappear like your ghost.

you said you don’t deserve me.

you don’t.

i loved you because i was stubborn.

not because you were worthy.

i hate that i will try to stop you

when you walk out the door

because i need you to leave.

you are killing me

but i am alive because of it.