Learning to smile again

Learning to smile again

Officially over it

I was happy for a while.

Was I really though?

Two of the four years alone,

Just Malcolm and I.

Then I lose my world,

Right after I moved out of our house.

I appreciate you and your family coming to the wake and funeral.

But does that make up for everything else?

Everything that has happened since then.

No.

Not at all.

All I hear from you are lies,

Lying every second you can.

Whatever.

You can have this win.

I'm over it.

Officially.

I wont let you control my emotions anymore.

Why was I for so long ?

Thinking i was damaged goods.

I deserve to smile again,

Ii deserve to laugh again.

I deserve to be happy again.

No more calls form your mom about MY table from my dead nana.

It’s been two years.

Get her and her shit together to bring it my parents already.

What is that?

Why the lateness? And how did she end up with it ?

Again whatever, just bring table to my parents.

Whatever, all my questions and stuff at our house.

I’ll leave all my questions unanswered.

And not caring

Work on myself and learn to smile again.

-ej