Lately I've Been Thinking

Lately I’ve been thinking about screaming into the abyss

Into the nothingness

Searching for the solace only absence can provide

Total darkness, the only way to hide from the overwhelming onslaught

Of this over tumultuous world

So many red-flags, now brazenly unfurled

My ear was always to the ground

Bending down to listen

For the rumbling sound of troubles in the distance

But now I stumble in confusion

Every moment packed with the persistence

Of wave upon wave upon wave of wave of stubborn insistence

That trouble is in the water, in the wind, in the air

Everywhere you look, and hear, and speak, trouble is there

That the world as we know it and as we knew it is just gone

That we blew it

Now we’re soon moving on to picking up the pieces

Judging where they’ll fall

If in fact indeed there are any pieces left at all

Instead of bending down with my ear to the railroad track

I’ve drawn my head into my shell

A turtle spinning on its back

Feeling my “self” under attack

From a million forces

Connections shattered

Everything that mattered

In rivers changing courses

Who ever dreamed that the apocalypse

Would be like this?

The death of a thousand cuts

Unrelenting ifs, ands, and buts

But so it is

And there you go

Sinking back into the hedgerow

To get away from all of this

In the comfort of the abyss.