Kintsugi for the Soul
Repairing the broken pieces of a broken heart
No words will ever manage to describe the feelings you are going through,
The pain of feeling your soul shattered, the doubts that invade your mind.
How can someone that professed so much love for you,
Can ever cause you so much pain?
It must feel like everything, perhaps, was in vain
Because when you get your soul shattered and your trust is broken
How can we repair a million broken pieces with some forgiveness tokens?
It feels impossible to trust again when you let your heart open
When you gave everything you could even when times were rough
“Is there something wrong with me? Am I not good enough?
What was it that made you do it? To have created all that guff
If only my soul could tell you
How much it hurts right now
Torn in pieces laying around,
Having your guts disemboweled"
"How can I move past your lies?
Distinguish what was real from what was not?
I feel so stupid to even think about
That I wanted us to tie the love knot”
Just thinking about it, the doubts sinisterly creep back again.
Going through the motions for a while
Until the mind exhaust itself
I'd rather feel numb than to ever feel this pain.
I wish I never did it, wish I would've die
But wishful thinking doesn't solve problems
Neither does it mend a broken heart
When you get your hopes crushed into pieces
Little does an "I am sorry" help to put the pieces apart.
It fails to express into words
The feelings of remorse for what I put you through,
Having you far away and distant even when I am next to you
Feels like punishment when I hear you say
You wish you never came to see me
Having you regret ever contacting me again
And while I keep putting myself in your shoes
I keep feeling all of your pain.
Please, my Love
Don’t doubt yourself anymore
Don’t hesitate once again
Do all the things you want
And I’ll be here instead
Regretting all my life
All the pain and destruction I brought
Wishing I never lived
To be the one who had my soulmate torn
If there’s ever forgiveness for sinners like myself
It must be a place where they suffer through their sins
In order to be rebirthed again
To learn to see the Light among all that Grim
I’ll go through Hell on my own
But I’ll keep begging to God in Heaven
If I can please save whatever I have left
Because you are the One that fills me completely
You are the medicine to my bereft
Loving you
Was the best decision I ever made
I want us to move past this
But the uncertainty once again seeps in
Now I put myself in your position thinking:
How can you forgive me for all my sins?
About the Creator
Aries Mind
Late-Bloomer expressing his Pervasive Mind:
The Occult, yet Artistic, Truth of His Side.
Walking and Stumbling, Searching for Bliss
Seeking Redemption, In the Dark Abyss.
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