Just A Feeling

Following a diagnosis confirming having dissociative identity disorder (DID), I was recently asked by a friend to write a letter depicting my emotions. This is how I have been feeling lately, more precisely while trying to navigate through my alters and all the conflicting personalities.

I’m only starting

Starting to know myself now

Despite all these years

Strange are my feelings

You will find them wall-to-wall

They’re out of control

I am mystified

Perplexed by all these new layers

Too many of them

I am not alone

Dare I ask others for aid

Perhaps I should not

I must find a way

A way to sort through them soon

Else I will be lost