it gets better

my head hurts from crying

I am so sick of trying so hard.

I feel like everything just washes

down the drain, slips out from my fingers

before I can get a proper hold.

When does it get better?

Does it, does it really?

Or do you just get used to it,

like everything else

The throbbing bleeds into the

background noise.

So far, it has only really

gotten worse, so forgive me

if I find it a little hard to believe

that it gets better.