Into the Deep

Another late night where my pen is calling, trying to phone in

Emotions got their hands on my throat, you can see me choking

A man drowning because he has accepted the greatness of the wave

A man so afraid of himself, he'd rather save everyone by retreating to his cave

Trying to regulate these thoughts are never easy , believe me

I couldn't explain it properly if i had a chance to , it beats me

Like a rapper wearing chains so the world believes he's swimming in riches

Say I'm okay so dont worry if I have another date in the land of the living

I wish people just leave me alone, it's at the top of my Amazon wishlist

But i don't want to buy yet so I leave it there, maybe buy it for christmas

You could see my outside and wonder why I display all these gimmicks

Trying to capture the attention of a man who multiplied 5 loaves and 2 fishes

Trying to wrap your head around my emotions, that's a sikh religion

I know what I have to do but it is a simple yet tough decision

If I ask him to save me again, would it make the devil laugh in derision ?

Or would he jump in this time and give me a brand new vision?

My state ? I feel like a fish out of water

Why wait? I can volunteer to be the next sheep to the slaughter

Do I pray? I no longer have space in my prayer jotter

Where is faith ? Currently low , with no idea where and how to charge her