In My World

[Verse 1]

Imagine if you will,

A long hallway with doors on either side,

Each one another story

And some of them hold bad fairytales,

It's like playing Russian roulette,

With memory reels,

Open one door and see

What you get from existing

The odds outweigh the gain,

And it feels like every day,

I'm opening a peephole

Filled with ruminating pain

[Pre-Chorus]

Every memory is its own form of trauma,

That, my brain puts on constant replay,

[Chorus]

In my world

It's a making of my own hell,

Where I live on Earth

That feels like purgatory

Overly sensitive to the emotions of others

That, I'm lost in my own noise,

The things they don't say,

Speak louder than how we converse

It's the major part

The only pay acceptable

It's your pain

(In my world)

[Verse 2]

A happy open door

Is closed by noon

Lost deep within my thoughts

That, coming back to the surface

Makes me feel the "Bends."

Where you see the tip of this,

Please know that it goes deeper

This iceberg is the final feature

That happy wave has gone away,

And I'm back on land

Crumbling into the sand

My personal island that holds me like a prison-

[Pre-Chorus]

Every memory is its own form of torture,

That, my brain puts on constant replay,

[Chorus]

In my world

It's a making of my own hell,

Where I live on Earth

That feels like purgatory

Overly sensitive to the emotions of others

That, I'm lost in my own noise,

The things they don't say,

Speak louder than how we converse

It's the major part

The only pay acceptable

It's your pain

(In my world)

[Bridge]

A few good memories

Behind a heavy door

Locked up tight

Hesitant to view them

When I'm quickly overwhelmed

By all the bad,

I can't change the past

But I wish I could,

I can't take back

What I let, me

Put me through

There are no safe spaces

When the monster is always

You-

[Outro]

I learned the hard way

What it's like to hate me,

So much so,

It became a part of me,

Now here I am,

Thirty-six-years-old

Trying to accept what I am

With guidance from some,

On how to accept,

How amazing I am

While living in my world

(In my world)

Sitting here existing

(In my world)

Where breathing isn't a crime

(In. My. World-)