Why is it that you only ever look at me when we’re sitting down on the bathroom floor
Engaged in a ritualistic binding of the slits on my arms
Why is it only then
In the comfort of crimson stained tile
That you allow yourself to fully be mine
Why is it that we can only ever talk
Sitting down on the bed
Looking out the ever expanding tapestry of 500 count Egyptian threaded sheets
And fully gaze into each other’s eyes
Ignoring the knot in the closet
That despite my rusty Boy Scout knowledge
Would have still held my weight
Why is it that when you’re gone
I’ll return to the comfort of those tiles
And as you look down from heaven
And connect with my upturned eyes
Why is it that my arms continue to paint over the masterpieces we made together
That when I swirl my finger through the paint and over the dozen times washed canvas
Why is it that I swear I can feel your tears coming down from heaven and washing off our canvas like you had done some many times before?
Why is it that when I enter the closet
It is only then I can hear your voice
A shining light telling me to leave the tie alone
And lie down in those same 500 threads that seemed to spark the only conversation I cared about
And when you told me you were here
When you told me that my burden was not just mine to bear
When you told me that you would carry my cross
I believed you
And as I walk into that closet
I still believe you
As I fumble over knots that would make boys scoff
I still trust you
And as I look up towards you
And say my last words
I’m finally home
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