If only

Whenever I'm alone

Whenever I'm cold

In the quietest of tones

I feel a presence great and bold

I try to ignore it

It comes back at me

Even in world concentric

I can see reality

Sometimes it crosses my mind

Sometimes it comes closer

Everything still looks the same

Except for one kind of poser

In the darkness and nights

Such a presence, so strong

Even in the midst of all this light

I know that I haven't been wrong

I wish I could see

I wish I was higher

This presence which truly

Can never ever tire

Finally, I retreat

Into my mental domain

Where I take a seat

While other things still remain

In here I've found comfort

And peace and joy

Still upstairs I feel all the tumult

If only I wasn't to it a toy

If only …..

If only …..