I Wish I Could Disappear

While waking up

A sudden thought came across my mind

Nobody knew what I was thinking about.

It was a thought anyone would've had at least once or twice or multiple times in a day, month, year, through time

If I disappeared

If I were to disappear.

As if I were never here.

I wish I could not be here.

Today I'm living as hard as I was yesterday If I go on living hard like yesterday

I might find a reason not to disappear If I just go on like yesterday

While the world is asleep, I stared out the window and started thinking

A sudden thought crossed my mind once again

I thought to myself

If I disappeared

If I were to disappear

If only I weren't here just for a moment

Today once again

I'm living as hard as yesterday once again

If I just go on like this again

I'll become a person who doesn't want to disappear again

Someday

Happier days than today today will come if I just go on living hard enough

Nobody knows what I was thinking about

A thought that I always think about crosses once again

I want to disappear

I wish I could disappear