I Will Rest
A New Year Resolution / A Love Poem For Myself
Each and every morning, I will open
my bedroom window
and I will greet
the morning light.
I will let it wash over my face, I will
open my mouth and let it travel
down my throat and
into my limbs and
through my veins and
I will feel its warmth illuminate me from the inside out.
I will see the morning light’s
soft tint on my skin
and I will find myself saying
wow,
here is my skin,
what beautiful skin this is…
how lucky I am to get to live in this skin.
And each and every morning, I will rest knowing this:
that the morning has come, and I am in it.
You will not find me in yesterday, and I cannot yet be in tomorrow, but
here, in this morning, this is where I am.
_
Each and every morning, I will ask myself:
What is my resolution for today?
Because
I am allowed to change day by day.
My mind is not meant for a pitch-perfect routine -
a rhythmic agenda that doesn’t miss a beat.
No,
my needs and emotions shift
far too often to know
what each day will hold
and what I will need in
each new day
and that is okay with me…
_
I will learn to love the parts of myself that are human
(that is to say, all of me).
_
In fact, each morning, when I watch
the morning light rest softly on my skin,
perhaps I will let that
remind me of just
how very human I am.
_
I will let myself rest in this: I am a human, no more and no less.
_
And so my resolution might change each day -
one day to climb to the top of a hill,
another day to wash my hair
to eat three meals
to say something kind to myself
or to find new hope.
_
I know that if I pause for a moment
(and quietly listen)
I will be able to know what I need,
at least for that day.
One thing I hope to
be sure of
each day
is that I am me, I am not them...
I hope that even inside
my most treasured
relationships, I will hold
a sacred separation,
to give both I
and the other
the dignity of being
fully ourselves.
...
I would like to picture
each day
a beautiful hedge of vines
surrounding myself and
all that I am.
And in this sphere I hold all that I own -
my thoughts,
my feelings,
my points of view...
my values,
desires,
strengths and
ideas...
that is to say, all of the things I have the privilege of
having
ownership of.
Later in the day, when it is dark and time for me to rest. I will be able to
let
myself
rest.
Because I will say to myself -
me and the light,
we have had this
whole and
wonderful
waking
day together.
And we will be together again tomorrow.
And since I
fully felt the light today
(and let the sun rinse out my soul entirely)
I can rest knowing that
this day was fully spent, and
I can let it be.
And each and every night,
I will say
thank you
for the soft linen pillow that cradles my head,
for the bed that holds me,
and for the white noise machine
on my bedside table that
lulls me
shushes me
gently to sleep.
I will think to myself, how lucky am I to have
a pillow
a bed
a white noise machine
and a mind to think of all of these grateful thoughts.
_
Because, lastly,
each and every day this year,
(and each and every night)
I will rest in moments of gratefulness,
and by feeling grateful
I will find new rest.
About the Creator
Laura M.
Living in Portland, Oregon.
Feeling things deeply.
Writing to understand.
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