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I Should Be

The Constant Battle of Mental Health

By Laura LannPublished 4 months ago 1 min read
I Should Be
Photo by Martin Martz on Unsplash

I squashed these feelings,

They should be dead

As the bugs on my sill in the winter cold.

I cared for these thoughts,

Carefully picked apart and unpacked

Them in the presence of a professional.

Yet before me they stand,

Starved and skinny

Here again and hungry for blood.

Their jaws pry far open to eat

All that has grown and thrived

In my heart and my mind.

They will trample the garden,

Devour the fruit,

And plant their seeds.

The weeds will sprout and choke.

The flowers will whither,

Ivy will poison and blossom

Welts on my skin and mind

That ooze horrid thoughts, blister

Till they spread.

Quickly, I should find a cure

But I am tired, exhausted.

Why must I do this work again?

They're growing stronger.

Clawed hands swipe and take,

Shove bits of my garden down

With triumph cries and giggles.

I will have to chase them out,

Drive them forth with stake and flame

And replant the bulbs and shrubs,

Summon back the bees and sun.

I should be better. Should be happy.

But, I'm not.

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About the Creator

Laura Lann

I am an author from deep East Texas with a passion for horror and fantasy, often heavily mixed together. In my spare time, when I am not writing, I draw and paint landscape and fantasy pieces. I now reside in Alaska where adventures await.

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  • Andrew C McDonald3 months ago

    Very intense and moving. Feelings of anguish, betrayal, rage, hurt … All come through so strong. This is a moving testimony. Great work.

  • Linda Rivenbark3 months ago

    Intense! Hoping you drive them out and overcome...and revel in the bees and sunshine.

  • This was so heartbreaking! Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

  • Chloe Gilholy4 months ago

    I love the connection of nature, mental health and the plants made it feel authentic.

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