i

when they ask

darling

who hurt you

i cannot point fingers

except at me.

the one who

cut my flesh

burned my skin

drew my scars

it was all me.

i hurt me

and i cannot stop.

i hate me

more than anyone

cares to

i tell the girl

in the mirror

things that make

her cry.

i let people

treat her

the way the voices

in her head

say she deserves.

i break her heart

into a million pieces

and cut her fingers

with the shards.

you don’t deserve

love

you have not

earned it.

i broke me.

do not blame

the stars.